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No idea. What really got me about that group was that they had a couple of special needs adults with them. They were caregivers to fellow humans, and yet so callous. I know a LOT of people like that. The neighbors at my parents' new house saw my uncle's gf, who is black, and will now not speak to any of us. My best friend back home's new boyfriend holds super racist views about the children his daughter plays with, and my friend just doesn't want to challenge him on it because "Well I don't agree with his views, but I mean, I just don't care that much, and it's not worth fighting about now". :w00t: dangerous land whales, those Yeah, I walked out of there and joked with my parents that at least they deemed me a passing woman! My experience with people who have issues with LGBT, Trans especially, is that they don't know how to address them, feel threatened or weirded out by the new concept, and then essentially lash out with a message of "oh just stop it, be normal". I didn't realize until maybe the last 5-7 years how damaging a lot of my opinions and language were. It took gentle education from friends to wake me up. The things I'd say and believe were just so ingrained, and I held myself in a light of "I'm one of the GOOD ones because I'm NOT an overtly racist/sexist/awful POS, the crap I say is meant to be funny or flippant, I don't REALLY mean it, it's sarcasm"... which in my community, was sort of true. You couldn't tell me otherwise. I was young and ignorant. Definitely took the realization that people would hear me and think I was an idiot or worse, that I was hurting people I genuinely liked, to make me really reconsider my course. "ha ha I was drunk" is not an excuse, either.

I spent the last week back in my home (which I've talked about here as it being pretty conservative before) helping my parents move. We went out for lunch/dinner, and were calmly/quietly talking about the state of affairs and LGBT issues/military came up. I was informing my parents about trans issues, as they have very little exposure to it and wanted to know more, and I know quite a few who are transitioning/have transitioned. The table of people next to us got quieter and quieter and it became clear to me they were eavesdropping on our conversation. I glanced over and was met with a group of glares. Not long after, we got up to leave, and they stared at us and one of the women (all were 40 and above) loudly goes "I bet she's a tranny too" and the man looked me head to toe and goes "disgusting". Good lord I hate going home. I live in my little bubble up here for the most part. It gets popped every time I go back there... I have more stories like that from this weekend but that was the worst one.

Y'all'r some horny motherf*kers aintcha :P

yeahhh I'mma go with transparent crystal + shadows n stuff. But hey, who knows! If Jon Snow can somehow survive a dump into freezing water with all that gear/furs/leather on and the subsequent subzero hourish long ride back without succumbing to hypothermia... anything's possible. Unless he's an Other... oooo

I always feel so much worse after a nap- all nauseated and sweaty and loggy. It's too bad. I'm always craving one.

Yeah.... she was back to her earlier season form of "part lips slightly, open eyes a liiiiittle wider than usual, and stare dully into the distance". Like, I get it's hard to convey emotion at nothing (or a dude with a mocap tennis ball on a wire or something) but yeah... it was pretty bad. She didn't even really breathe harder, or knit her brows, or anything... just... ah yep, another pretty Dany shot. Kay. Sooo does wight dragon spew cold breath that like... super freezes things so you can shatter them into a million pieces now?

I'll be driving to Rochester during it. Genuinely a bit worried about if it's really that safe to be driving during it. Don't have a choice.

Children's parties. We do kids birthday parties at the studio, and we can theme them either just aerial, superhero or princess. I had two workshops on Saturday followed by an aerial birthday party, about 12 kids. It was exhausting. But then. Sunday. A superhero party. 16 kids. 16 hyperactive 8 year olds. We cap parties at 12 but... that didn't happen this time, and we didn't have a third instructor available. And this one idiot couple with the most nuclear child also had an 18 mo. old that they just let wander around in the middle of it. Flying kids, feet everywhere, lots of potential catastrophes and there's this baby waddling around. "Excuse me, you might want to grab her, she's going to get hit" "Oh it's ok, she's durable" *proceeds to roll their fu*king stroller and walk their dirty shoes all over our mats despite our protestations* I was holding one rambunctious, fairly hefty boy upside down as he ignored my instructions while also trying to scoop the damn baby out of the way of his feet... Now that was a goddamn workout.

Got another design live for 26Shirts... Pittsburgh again. I swear, I have at least 2 Buffalo designs that'll come out in a couple months... But yeah, if you know any Steelers fans who like superheroes, this is the one for them! I could see a little kid really liking this one. http://www.26shirts.com/steel-man.html

goddammit I accidentally clicked because i finally caught up with the last two and was prowling around here and lost track of the episode numbers... and I guess I have to go dig up a torrent and watch it now. Otherwise wait 2-3 weeks until sabills and our friend can get together and binge.

I understand this. When I was younger and first going to shows, my knowledge and ability to not be a "poser" was just as big a barrier as my age. What resulted was a bunch of neurotic, annoying, young idiot fans like me who could recite Band Facts like a walking Wikipedia page, all afraid to like the "wrong" bands. If someone digs even just one album by a band and would pay money to see their show, I consider them a fan. I've mentioned it before, but especially with metal/punk, there's a crapton of ridiculous gatekeeping. You don't need to be an obsessed superfan to earn your enjoyment! Just have fun. If people have an issue, they're clearly more about their own egos than sharing the joy of the music you're all there to see.

addendum to moral: Don't F*ck with (Very) Pregnant Women

I've kind of been cultivating a pin/patch battle jacket base for years. I'd only wear a battle jacket to ... battley-moshy shows, though, so my softer tastes wouldn't land a spot on it. This would be my combat boots and leather miniskirt group of choices. in no particular order: Mastodon Rammstein Gogol Bordello Motorhead Bowie Slayer Rob Zombie Skeletonwitch Electric Wizard Bathory Gojira Die Antwoord Ministry The Cure The Cramps Combichrist Nine Inch Nails Melvins The Prodigy Alice in Chains The Clash

I mean, it's not the worst idea if you have no ideas... Nothing wrong with poking around your SO's likes/dislikes to find something they'll enjoy. I just wanted to get d4rk something I knew he wanted to try and didn't want to dump the money on. Y'all are pretty thorough here, and he was pretty vocal about his preferred taste profiles and stuff he'd already had. Bit more in depth than pinterest...

At my last office, we'd have a fridge purge every last wednesday of the month. It always incited a minor riot, because someone would get butthurt when their 3 week old pizza slice got tossed and they couldn't be bothered to get out of their chair and walk 10 feet to claim it. I never left food in the fridge beyond the day I ate it. If you dared to, the bosses and friends would eat it all when they rolled back in from nightly bar hopping to play video games and drink more (yeah they pretty much lived there). Didn't matter if it was something you'd really worked on to make and have a big batch of or not, they'd scoff it up and pretend it didn't happen. Always was great if you were working late and they'd stumble in, eat your goddamn dinner in front of you and stumble back out.

:lol: Pretty sure this place is acting as my therapist. Sorry bout that, guys. This team needs to become contenders so I can actually have something interesting to add besides doodling. oh- it serves another major purpose- the first couple years of dating d4rk I'd lurk the whiskey and cigar threads for birthday/xmas presents. Thanks for that. <3

Finally got in with a GI doc. aaaand I have to go through tests next month I've been dreading for years... which is why I've put it off for years. It's not like it's a huge horrible deal, I just don't don't DON'T want to go through it. But this place is really thorough, between the 6 vials of blood taken and the other gross lab things I have to do, they want a good baseline of data so maybe I can finally find a treatment plan and live a more normal life, maybe eat something besides the BRAT diet for once. d4rk had food poisoning as mentioned above and I'm like... this is 4 days out of every week for me. Ready to find a way out of that.

oh, it's just tipsy is all

Taught my first class tonight! It was bungee fitness. It's quite a fad right now. You harness up and essentially bounce/fly around in a dancey/aerobic manner. Oh my god it kicks your ass. My back and core are just on fire. Everyone seemed to have fun, though!

something something bat nipples whyyyyy

I'm only 5 min in and she's already said about 100% of the things on my mind. Yeah. Don't read the comments. Made that mistake with some of my work a few times. It's hard not to... Apparently a "drunk toddler could do better than this" and "seriously, why would you give this guy money when there's real artists out there" (they always assume I'm male it's great), and from people I know, "you're just a glorified copy artist, that's not real art or talent." Boy, that's been a fun one lately. And it's why I haven't been doing the work I like most (the realistic portraits). My peers and a couple superiors let me know I'm regarded as a hack. And now I have a mental block on it. Because I don't want to "art it up" to make it "real" and let them win, but I also feel like sh!t about the way I paint now. Good stuff.

I've never made it on. The lines have always been a few hours long or it's been broken. But Millenium is awesome. A friend and I rode front seat 5x in a row at the end of the night. Just watch out for mayfly season... you don't want to be on the front car during that... made that mistake once. I was finding smashed bugs on my body the rest of the night and it just freakin' hurts being a windshield at 60+ mph.

http://www.nfl.com/news/story/0ap3000000828580/article/bills-trade-sammy-watkins-to-rams-acquire-matthews?campaign=tw-nf-sf105396214-sf105396214&sf105396214=1&utm_source=t.co&utm_medium=referral Darby and a pick to Eagles too.

And re: to all the stuff above- y'all are great. I'm happy you're all happy. Your kids are lucky to have you! I think it's a very individual thing. I know some incredible parents and some.. not so incredible ones. I get told "oh it's a love you've never felt" a lot about a newborn. I'm sure. Chems/hormones are a hell of a thing. But... what if I don't? What if that doesn't happen? It's all on me as the mother. My mother upon my sister coming into the world 2+ months premature didn't get to touch her for days after birth- she said she never bonded to her, not for months, and then the cancer showed up and she had this screaming, dying infant, desperately ill exploding at both ends, hooked up to tubes and machines that she had no idea what to do with and no help (my father had to travel to keep finances somewhat in check). It's... really made a difference in my sister. She has never coped well. It's no fault of my mother's. You could blame doctors. But god... what if that's me and I irrevocably fu*k up a kid who's already probably going to be fu*ked with my genetics in them??!?! I guess I care too much about their potential wellbeing to screw it up so severely from the get-go.